Waking up for the first time in what it seems like years. I dreamt about one of my greatest fears. A way I carried onward. I have a hard time placing words. What I saw was mindless. I saw myself painless. Now that I saw my own life portrayed through my own eyes, I do regret not saying goodbye to you. I gave a fighting chance. I can't imagine my value. For what it's worth. I can't imagine my value. I never meant to foresee my own demise. I let down all my life. I can see it right through their own eyes. Mindless. I am dead. Dead inside this world. I am free of the remedy. Purpose. Strung along. Dead inside this world. I am free of the remedy. I awake as the setting sun strikes my face. I feel the weight of all my children never alive to see this. Your father was mindless.
released May 12, 2015
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